You

why you still here
I thought I told you to leave
last December

I thought I told you to flee

forever and ever

I thought I told you to
leave me alone
I don't want to see you in the mirror
I don't need you
never liked you
I'm just trying to be better

you keep bringing me down 

you glued my feet on the ground

bitch, I ain't your hound

you can't just boss me around

you the reason why
she left me in the first place
bitch, you know that
I didn't ever want to be replaced
you know all I ever wanted
was to forever feel her embrace
I told you in confidence
I wanted kids for us to raise
I told you to go take that gun
and go shoot yourself in the fucking face
you the reason
why all these people leaving
you the reason
why I can never love women
like how I'm wishing
you know they deserve better
than you ever giving
my boys and I ain't talking
and you the main reason 

why we tripping
you the main reason
for all these cigarettes I'm smoking
and all my blood that's dripping

you say you love them
but they know that you only lying
you say you never leave a brother
but didn't visit when he barely breathing
where were you
when they told you
that they needed you
don't let them deceive you
you know this world don't ever need you
I'm fucked up
but I'll never be as fucked up as you
I still put the blame on you
you know
I'm still ashamed of you
after all these years
I'm still hating you
I hate you
and I hope you embrace it
I'm not sorry, I really just can't help it
you ain't shit
your existence a burden, everyone felt it

bitch, everything your fault
and you fucking know it
should've killed you a long time ago
when I had the chance
when shit hit the fan
how could I be so dense
how couldn't I see
what you were doing to me emotionally
how mentally disturbed I was
after you done fucking with me

you think I don't know you ?
I know every nook and cranny
I know your secrets
I know you been battling
depression since the beginning

I know you been suicidal

even before you finished schooling 
I know you mean well
but news flash
that's where you fail
I know your secrets
don't make me go tell the world
like how secretly you still waiting
for that other girl
but life being life
I guess she'll never know
I swear
I should've killed you a long time ago
if these walls could talk
even they would say,

"you gotta go"