to the girl on Instagram
who occasionally likes my photos
I swear I'm not a stalker
but how I know your birthday is in February
and how much you love tea
is definitely beyond me
don't ask, don't tell, I suppose
you see
I often ask myself
" what is the science behind having a crush ? "
what explanation is there
that whenever I think of you
I think of how your delicate fingers
intertwine with mine
how is it that
in my head
I can imagine you asking me how my day went
without even having heard your voice before
I imagine your voice to be
as smooth as silk
soft enough to create your own lullabies that will
last centuries
for children across the globe to fall asleep to
the only chemistry class I paid attention to in school
was when the teacher told us that when you are in love
your brain releases doses of chemicals into your body
all in order for you to feel happy
when I heard that
I asked myself 2 things
1. " so, when you are in love, are you really in love ? "
2. " or is it just your brain fucking with you ? "
because these chemicals are easily
produced in a lab
so, how can I trust myself when I am convinced that
I'm in love with someone
much less having a crush
with someone whom I'm even not sure knows of my existence
( but I hope you do )
I hope maybe some day
we could share a brief moment
because
a brief moment with you
is enough for me to want to be
a robber
just so I could steal your heart
a brief moment with you
is enough for me to want to punch cupid in the face
because when he shot you with his arrow
he mistakenly shot another guy who isn't me
a brief moment with you
is enough for me to want to pluck the stars in night sky
and wrap it nicely in a box
and give it to you when you least expect it
with a card that reads,
" you are more beautiful than this "
a brief moment with you
is enough for me to want to be
your ex-boyfriend's stunt double
I want to do the things he never had the courage to
I want to say the things he couldn't even whisper
I want to love you in a way he never could
a brief moment with you
is enough for me to want to be able stop time
so, that this very brief moment I have with you
can never
ever
end
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