my dear darling
my dandelion,
you beautiful creature

here are words
that could never
escape my lips

I feel like
I've felt everything I'm ever gonna need to feel
and
I'm not gonna feel anything new
just
less

I still find myself
having conversations with you
in my head
and its the quiet ones
that hurts the most

I feel like the make up in your eye
waltzing down your cheek
when you cry
slowly
dissipating
slowly
disappearing

I'm sorry
for what we have
for what we had
the things you said to make me happy
the person you had to be
but
my love is broken
you made me feel
unworthy of the only thing I had
the only thing I could offer
this hole in my chest only gets
bigger and larger
you broke me
forever

I am grateful
to have grown young with you
to kiss the corner of your lips
to touch your skin
with the tip of my fingers
you made me who I am
and you will always be in my heart

I am everyours
but
you were nevermine




I have to let you go now