I'm writing this
for you
yes

you

and this time
I really do hope
you read it

there are so many
things that are on
my mind
I just
can't seem to
put them down in words

feelings are involved
indefinitely
but let's not state the
obvious

I am confused
and I'm
lost
much more than
I already am
I am
completely
unstable
emotionally and
mentally

I feel
helpless
but
in a good way
I feel uncomfortable
as if I stole bread
from a market
and I'm labelled as a thief
and everyone sees me
and
recognizes me as one
nothing more than that
nothing less than that
they have their eyes on me
whenever I walk
with their
murmured whispers
that are louder than shouts
I feel kind of like Aladdin
yeah

If you are reading this
I want you to know
that I've tried
talking with slurred tongues
to no avail
I want you to know
I waited
2 hours and 32 minutes
on a Saturday
to be exact
and
I've simulated the gut dropping
feeling
as I jump off a cliff
a thousand times
to prepare myself
for the possibility of
things
working out

but
I know
that
it might not be
the right
time
and
I might not be
the right
one
so I'm leaving everything
for now,
that is
perhaps
one day
the time,
our time
will come
who knows ?
I certainly don't

but if it does

well,
let's
find out