to be honest
all metaphors aside
all subliminal messages and slurred words aside
I feel like I have lost everything
all these emotions and feelings that I once had
are just,
gone
And
because of that,
I am incapable of just
producing things
writings
I mean,
writing is kind of a big thing for me
its what I do, its what defines me
sometimes I feel that its all that I have
and yet
I'm just, incapable
I go through my daily routines
day by day
and not feel a thing
I do not feel happy
I do not feel sad
I'm just
here

I am unable to care of other people's feelings
because I've my own to look after
I am only a fucked up guy
looking for my own peace of mind

and I don't see myself loving ever again