19
that's
4 years more than I wanted
how can people even say
life and happiness in the same sentence
they are the complete opposite and it
annoys the hell out of me to how people just fail to see that
they fail to see how
miserable and utterly depressing
life really is
they fail to see life's true face
that bitch

so you watch a couple of movies
and you read a couple of books
and you're poisoned with the idea of happiness
you think happiness should be a certain way
happiness is 6 puppies in a basket
happiness is getting that dress you've been eyeing on forever
happiness is feeling superior and oppressing others
happiness is unconditional love
happiness is getting what you want
what a load of bullshit
you watch these movies
and you read these books
you even open up the newspaper everyday to read your horoscope
" libra's wild, gemini's sensitive, leo's hot"
your whole fucking life you've had people telling you what " life " really is
on and on you go and you start believing
and y'see
that's when the fun really starts
cause then you're just living a lie
you're living based on life principles
that people poisoned you to believe
you have no real principles
you have no real morals
you are empty
you are a consumerist
taking in everything
without even questioning
anything

there is no real happiness
and I should have died
4 years ago